It just started to rain.

Right now, I'm feeling like a romantic sitting in bed, writing and looking out at the raindrops on my window. I can hear the soft sound of the rain and the occasional car driving by on the wet road. I'm working on something creative inside while the world outside is busy with the rain. It might sound silly, but even though it's a bit strange, I'm sad, and it somehow matches the mood, and I like it anyway.
In the past few weeks, I've been very emotional. I've had a lot of feelings that I needed to express and deal with. Most of it comes from feeling lonely.
To give you some background, loneliness is something I'm very familiar with. I've felt it my whole life, maybe more than most people. It's a feeling that never really goes away for me, no matter how hard I try. It's like I'm a little different, like people don't understand me, and I always have to work extra hard to fit in, but I never quite feel as connected as I want to be, no matter how much I try.

Basically, the idea of human connection and the opposite feeling of loneliness have always been on my mind. I've learned a lot about dealing with these feelings, and I can function pretty well as an adult, for the most part.

You see, being isolated doesn't just mean you can't see your friends and family whenever you want. It means you see fewer people in general. You don't see the familiar faces at your favorite coffee shop, or the people jogging by your house, or anyone else for that matter.

It's okay to go through tough times sometimes. Life isn't always happy and easy. It's good to be honest with yourself every now and then so you can feel, think, and learn from those experiences.
But getting out of a tough emotional place is always hard, no matter who you are.