I realized people never loved me for me... It was just the way I showed up for them, the way I held them down & had their back, the way I came thru when everyone else didn't, the way I was always stable one, the way my minset stimulated theirs, the way I looked pass their flwas and wanted the best for them, the way I was loyal no matter what... I'm this person because I've always wanted a person like me in my life....

I really love her, I miss her. I can give my life for her, her smile, her voice, her presence, everything makes me feel good. She's perfect from every angle. She gives me the smile I so wanted. When I look at her, time stops and I no longer think about the problems. She helps me without knowing it and gives me the support I need without even saying a word. She's everything I want. And here I am, shedding my tears because I want her next to me. I already know we will never be together because she doesn't love me... But she is everything I want. I hate love because I fell in love with a person who doesn't even feel anything for me. And I want to give my heart only to her, I know I'm hurting myself but I love this feeling, I'm in love I can't help it....I hate myself, I hate the world, I hate crying but because you are part of this world I have learned to love it, because when you cry I cry with you I begin to love crying. I know maybe my story makes no sense, only I could understand it...